Charmayne Kilcup, M.A.

2012 - What is it all about?

It’s 2012!! And unlike popular media would have you believe, this is going to be a phenomenal year overflowing with opportunity. Ancient traditions across the world have prophesied about this very exciting time in earth’s history. Luckily for us, we’re right in the middle of all the action. So what is 2012 supposed to bring and how can we harness the magical potentials being offered to us right now?
   

The Mayan calendar ends December 21, 2012. Many people have misinterpreted this to mean that the end of the world is near. However, what the Mayans actually prophesied was that December 21, 2012 marks the end of time as we know it. Specifically, we are going from a time of four elements to five elements. We’ve been living in a world of four elements – water, air, earth, and fire. Now, a fifth element is being introduced – ether. While this may not seem like a big deal, the addition of ether changes everything, including how we experience and measure time.
   

Another way of describing this shift is that we are progressively moving away from old energy, which is linear, predictable, and dualistic to new energy which is spontaneous, exponential, and clear.  Right now, new energy is flooding the earth. In the process, it is shaking up old systems, breaking up stuck energy, and forcing long buried secrets to the surface. The result looks like chaos as can be seen in headlines. In new energy, there is no hiding. New energy demands transparency and authenticity.
   

The chaos that you may be experiencing personally or feeling globally is part of this transition from old energy to new energy. I know I’ve been saying it for awhile now, but the energy is intense right now! You may be feeling this new energy surge in your body as dizziness, lightheadedness, shortness of breath, fatigue, strange body pains, memory loss, difficulty speaking, and a slight feeling of dissociation, among other things. Additionally, conflict within yourself and in interpersonal relationships may be coming to the surface as energies are seeking resolution right now.
   

Fortunately for you, amidst the chaos are incredible potentials. With this new energy surge, we have access to tremendous opportunity. New energy is almost magical in its ability to support manifestations. This year, manifestations are happening and they are happening quickly. It is time to get clear about what you choose to experience this year. What do you want to bring into your life? What do you want to create? Take some time to really ask yourself these questions and feel into your body for what answers spontaneously emerge. When you get clear about what you want to bring in, feel it in every cell. Feel your body, mind, and soul open up to gracefully allowing what you want to enter your life.
   

It is time to make clear choices. If you do not, new energy will honor that and you will be met with procrastination and delays. New energy will lovingly honor anything you choose and if you choose to do nothing, you will be met with nothing. New energy will also lovingly honor all conscious and deliberate choices. It is the perfect year to start new projects, launch a business, rebalance your body, allow in abundance, call in nurturing friendships, etc. What is it you are hoping for this new year? It could be as simple as desiring to experience more self-love, joy, or clarity. Or it could be as grand as finding your Soul’s passion or choosing enlightenment.  The potentials are limitless. Make choices and then stand back, allowing this energy to effortlessly serve you.
   

The energy surge we’re experiencing on earth is exciting, sometimes challenging, and ripe with potential. Now is the time to get very clear about what choices you want to make this year. Use this flood of new energy to serve you. You are being supported like never before in earth’s history. 

Savor Your Precious Life

What is one of the best things about being an Angel living on Earth? Pleasure!!! And lots of it. As human beings, we are uniquely situated to enjoy the physical dimension. Life here on Earth is thick, tangible, dense, and viscerally real. In other dimensions, we are energetically lighter and without physical bodies. We cannot ground ourselves to a physical place like we do on Earth. It is only though being human that we can live inside of physical bodies and enjoy the pleasure of a hand caressing our arm, or the taste of warm chocolate cake, or the feeling that runs through the body when we are dancing. It is through being human that we can enjoy making love physical through preparing a good meal, or having great sex, or painting beautiful colors onto canvas. The most wonderful part of being human is enjoying sensate pleasure.

For millennia, religions have taught us that our bodies are bad. Throughout history, asceticism has been in vogue in religions across the world. Denial of the body was considered to be the way to God and many people were sainted precisely because of their ability to deny their body and physical existence.

Denial of the body is not religious, spiritual, or necessary. We are here to glorify and revel in the body. Our fives senses are gateways to physical pleasure and spiritual experience. To be fully embodied as a human being, enjoying every single thing life throws our way, is the deepest spiritual experience one can have.

We are here to be human, nothing more and nothing less. And through the process of being an Angel in a human body, spiritual awakenings and understandings happen. We are here to embrace life fully and embrace ourselves fully. Enlightenment does not happen because of denial of life but because of a full acceptance of human life. When you choose life, you choose the pleasure of a good meal or the enjoyment of a fine work of art. You choose to stop and notice the quality of sunlight at dusk or savor the smell of a cup of hot tea as it warms your hands. Choosing life means allowing yourself the enjoyment of deep belly laughs with friends or a secret joyful smile at a passing child.

If there was only one thing I could teach my clients it would be to choose life and choose pleasure. Enjoy every single morsel of life because you may not be human again. And if you are, you will not be the person you are in this moment in this way. You will not get the pleasure of this life again.

Becoming a Conscious Creator – The First Step

Many of us would like to believe we are conscious creators or co-creators of our own reality. In a sense we are. However, what many people do not understand is that often times, we let other people, other things, or mass consciousness in general exert more control over our lives than we do.

Conscious creation is about making choices from every level of our being. It is about making choices that resonate through the very marrow of our being outwards through our subtle energy bodies and into Soul. Conscious creation happens when all parts of us are in alignment about what we choose to experience as Souls embodied.

The popular new age axiom “You create your own reality” is a true statement but does not tell the entire story. Yes, we do create our own realities but we are composed of many parts and these parts may not always be in agreement with each other. Creation is more than just thinking positive thoughts or focusing on what you want through the law of attraction. Conscious choices are not made from the mind. Conscious choices are made through the entire being. Creation is about getting in touch with the parts of you and getting clear about what different aspects of you are wanting and how that relates to what your Soul is choosing. Are all parts of you in agreement with what your Soul is choosing to experience?

When we aren’t clear about what we want and the different parts of Self are veering off into opposing directions, we leave room for anyone else or anything else to make decisions for us. This begs the question, “Who is pulling your strings?” Are you consciously creating your life from all levels of YOU or are you letting your partner, family, friends, finances, or mass consciousness make moves for you? Mass consciousness would be all too happy to tell you how to live. Where in your life are you making conscious choices and where are you letting everyone else run your life for you?

Thus, one of the keys to conscious choosing is getting in touch with different parts of you so you can begin to know what is happening inside of you. Get to know your mind, your Soul, your ego, and the many little voices inside of you begging for attention and acceptance. Those little voices are having an impact on what you are drawing into your life whether you know it or not. Get in touch with those voices and bring them to the light where they can become conscious and the larger totality of YOU can begin to make decisions from a place of conscious awareness instead of unconscious reaction.

When you sit down to think about what you would like to create in your life, ask yourself these questions:   

    1)    What do I want?
    2)    What part of ME is this desire coming from?
    3)    Is this desire something I really want? Is it something I’ve            been told I want? Is this somebody else’s desire for me?

Listen for the answers. You may find that your desires are coming from a sincere and high-level Soul desire for expression and creation. You may find that some of your desires are coming from wounded aspects of you that are seeking attention and healing. Again, there is no judgment of these aspects or their desires. Aspects are always seeking wholeness and healing. The point of this exercise is just to become conscious – to become aware of what is happening inside of YOU.    

Just let yourself hear the many different voices inside of you. Let them come into your awareness. Listen to what they want. Dialogue with them. This is the first step in becoming a Conscious Creator. Once you are aware of the many parts of you, you can begin to make full, powerful, and aligned choices that serve all parts of you in truly wonderful ways.

Welcoming in the Darkness

Things are changing, and things are changing fast. Collective consciousness still feels turbulent, chaotic, and downright painful at times. We are shifting at a phenomenal rate and the darkness that once was hidden or that we tried to separate ourselves from is out and about, longing for integration. We are in a time of reclaiming our own darkness on both a collective and personal level.

The darkness we see outside of us in the collective is also the darkness inside of us that is longing to come back home.

The darkness is not to be feared, it is part of us.  It is what Carl Jung termed the Shadow and it is the part of ourselves that we do not like, therefore condemn in both ourselves and others. A great example of this on the collective level is the “War on Terror.” The War on Terror is a classic case of what psychologists call projection, or projecting disowned parts of ourselves onto another. By making another person, place, or thing, the evil enemy, we are projecting our own darkness onto a tangible external source thereby distancing ourselves from it. In this way, we can be light, while something else is dark. We can be good, while something else is bad. With projection, we never have to own the parts of ourselves that we are afraid or that are socially unacceptable.

However, when we disown parts of ourselves and project them onto others, we are actually doing ourselves a great disservice. Our own darkness is not bad as we have been trained to believe. In actuality it has many gifts to offer.

The darkness is where we carry a tremendous source of power. It is only by going into darkness that we learn just how powerful we truly are as angelic beings here on earth. All of the most powerful healers and teachers that I know have fully delved into their own darkness and acknowledged it with love and compassion.

When we welcome our darkness home, it integrates with our light and unity is born. We become beings no longer tied to the games of duality. In essence, we become entirely new beings who are not just composed of dark and light, but something else entirely. When dark and light integrate, a third element is born that is not subject to the push/pull of old duality games. We find an independence from all the of the duality games we see going on around us.  

So, when you hear awful news stories that make you cringe, or hear disturbing stories from family or friends, recognize the darkness that has been released and is desperately trying to find its way home. Acknowledge it, welcome it in if it feels like yours, let it pass through you if it is not yours, and then bless it on its journey towards integration. The darkness cannot truly hurt you and was never really bad. It is here to empower you and help you on your journey. The darkness, just like everything else right now, is seeking balance.

Darkness is ready to come back home. Welcome it in with open arms and ask it what gifts is has to teach you.

Chaos

The tension and collective fear of America is so thick and so real that it’s palpable. We’re scared about the economy, gas prices, the elections, natural disasters, job security, safety and everything in between.

Yes, it’s intense out there, and it will continue to be for some time.  We are in the middle of an enormous transition and it’s time for many things to change.  As we make this transition from old energy (duality) into new energy (unity), many of the old structures have to be torn down before they can be re-built.  This is no reason to be afraid!  Re-birth is a natural process and the chaos and turmoil that we are experiencing has been predicted by many of the ancient traditions.  Essentially, we are in the birth canal of a new world order and everyone on the planet is feeling the squeeze.  It is not the end times like the media will have you believe.  In actuality, we are in wondrous beginning times that have long been predicted. 

In regards to the economy, The United States has long held much wealth and power as is natural in a dualistic world.  One person, entity, or country has traditionally been the “winner,” which has meant that some other person, entity, or country has to be the “loser.”  As we enter into new consciousness, there is no win-lose duality, there is only balance.  Thus, the seemingly economic crisis that the U.S. is experiencing is simply part of the process of global re-balancing that is necessary as we move into new energy. 

Oil prices have been rising for several years and they will continue to rise.  Again, this is no reason to be afraid!  Oil is a very literal symbol for old energy.  It is composed of the fossil fuel that was part of the old world that used oil and the energy it produces as a source of power.  We are entering new times and indeed, our old sources of energy need to go.  There are much easier, cleaner, and more efficient forms of energy that already exist or are on the verge of being born into existence.  These forms of energy are free, plentiful, abundant, and they are available to everyone.  Such abundance completely undermines the power struggles between nations of the past. Again, we enter into unity and energy for all, not a select few.

A new world is emerging as evidenced in the media, in the world, and in our personal lives.  Personal responsibility and oneness are the basis for this new consciousness we are entering into.  It is time for balance and it is time to look inwards at our own consciousness and how every single thing we do affects all other people, creatures, plants, and even spirit friends.

Here are some tips for coping during these tumultuous times:

1. Remember to consistently choose love instead of fear.
2. Look at your life and all the places where you may need to take personal responsibility and get out of victimhood; be it financially or in personal relationships.  Now is the time to act in integrity.
3. Heal your relationships with others and yourself so that you can maintain more of your own energy therefore lessening the pull of old energy.
4. Abstain from the television, newspapers, and online media whenever possible – they all maintain their existence by feeding you fear.
5. Focus on the joy and abundance already in your life – appreciate the little things in your life such as the pleasure of cooking or the color of a single rose.
6. Maintain a sense of wonder about the world – it is true that the best things in life are free.
7. Be aware that those around you are engulfed in fear and realize that you have the power to abstain from going into fear with them.
8. Ask your angels, guides, and God for an easy personal transition into this new world
9. Make the modifications you need to make in your life but make them without fear and know that nothing is permanent.
10. When faced with friends, family, or even strangers engaging in negative and fearful thinking, do both of you a favor and smile, bless them, and change the subject.
11. Forgive yourself when you unconsciously go into fear.

Remember, there is much more going on behind the scenes than on the stage.  As humans, we only see a tiny sliver of a much bigger picture and make judgments based on that.  If you can, take a deep breath, and feel into the bigger picture to see what is really going on.  There is great love there.